Lack of confidence and shyness holding me back

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I've always been shy, I was born that way. Now at the age of 36 I am still shy and quiet and find it hard to make friends and be sociable etc.

I have a good job, mainly computer based but occasionally I have to attend meetings and I really really struggle to speak up. It's like my mind goes blank and I can't think of anything to say. If I do think of something I really find it hard to actually speak up so most of the time I just sit and listen. I am fed up of living this way.., I dream of leading a team and being confident and articulate. I'd love to progress in my career but I am holding myself back.

For example, If I want a glass of water and there is already a person at the water dispenser I will avoid going over there until that person has gone so I don't have to speak to them FFS.

How do I change? Can I change?! I see confident and successful female managers at work and I am in awe... I want to be like them.

I’m the same and I hate it. I’m not too bad one to one but I find groups of people excruciating.

Same x

Try toastmasters. Type it in on google and attend. They will help you approach public speaking and improve. Maybe also consider seeing a confidence coach. I have a friend who used this amazing female empowerment and performance coach and she transformed her with a lot of tears and hard work but she's a different woman today and better for it too.
She's on Instagram ghareeba_rouass I don't know her website or other details but I'm sure you can make contact with her via Instagram.
Good luck!