Just as the title says. I'm having sex with an ex (well we was together when we were teenagers, first ever bf) but we have stayed friends. I know i shouldnt of started a friends with benefits, I've never done anything like this in my life, but We am both single, me for 12years, him only a year.
We both have children, I have 1 child whose disabled & hes a single dad whose got custody of his 2 kids.
The only thing is I think we am falling for each other & I didn't want a relationship, as I foster & I need to concentrate on my kids. They haven't met him yet & I don't want them to meet just yet anyway, I'm old fashioned where I need to no we are serious first.
It's bad enough asking a man to take on another man's child but to ask a man to take on someone else's children is asking to much, but he's turned round & said he's willing to do it, but why am I so nervous about that? My heart is saying jump at it but my head is telling me no & just concentrate on the kids, I live for my kids (Even if 2 ain't mine) & they need me.
At the start we discussed this, & we promised each other we wouldn't fall for each other, as it could get messy but I think we am, my heart goes all fluttery & my belly goes in knots when we see each other, which isn't a good sign. I feel like I am being selfish wanting this, as my kids need me more. I'm in such a mess :'(