I have posted before about this issue, so forgive me if I am repeating myself. I feel desperate and really down. We are skint all the time, (my fault as used to be a good earner but got very unwell a year ago and had to give job up. I'm trying to get another one in a different line) My DH is on a zero hour contract in a factory, so money is very tight. We moved 300 miles to near his DF. I don't have any close family left except my DS who stayed where we were before due to DP. We have a DD13 and she does to a very good state school, doing very well academically but struggling with getting left out. I am just so down and isolated. I miss DS and his DP, not that I seen them every day but they make me laugh. Not seen them for months due to lack of money. I feel I've mucked everything up for everyone including my girl.
DH despite speaking to him re guidance given by mumsnetters, still doesn't go near me physically and cos of his snoring, he takes himself off downstairs every night. (He gets up at 5am for a shift). I hate it here and see no light at the end of the tunnel. I know there are worse off than me but I just feel so low. I honestly feel if it wasn't for my kids and dogs, I don't see any purpose in my life. I know we can't move till I get a job and saved but getting one has been difficult. I just feel I've let everyone down. This house is also horrible as we don't have any money to do it up. I know there are alot worse of than me but I find my DH's lack of affection for me upsetting.