I hate that I find DS so hard

[NeverGotMyPuppy]

He is just over a year. He can now walk and is into absolutely fucking everything. We havent mamages to fit a stair gate because of our bloody awkward stairs so I just cannot ever take my eyes off him. He is never ever still. He wakes up early, I dont know whether to try putting him to bed later (its 7 at the moment) but I dont want him to wake up at the same time and have just had less sleep.
He does 4-5 dirty nappies a day. If not wiping a bottom I'm wiping the highchair.

This all sounds so trivial written down. And he is such a happy, smiley baby. But I'm just so exhausted by the sheer relentlessness of it.

I'm supposed to be going to the gym tonight. I just want to sit and eat kit kats.

I hear you. It is hard. I’m going to be honest, the thing that saved me was going back to work full time. I went part time 6 months later and I much preferred an 18 month old.

Yeah I'm part time and I must say I'm looking forward to tomorrow

Feeling similar.. have a 2yo and 6 month old. I must say I found it a lot easier when the older one turned 18 months. Now he's a doddle. I don't like to wish time away but we've had a horrendous time with the baby and it's so so so fucking hard. I have zero downtime and by the time they are asleep I am beyond exhausted. I feel ill with exhaustion on a good day

This too shall pass

I know the feeling and it's relentless, and I found that everyone else seemed to be enjoying every second with their babies which made me feel really guilty.

I pretty much hated every day of my maternity leave with DC1, they cried non stop for months and then whinged constantly from the 9-18 month mark. And on top of that I felt I could t enjoy them as all I did was chase after them and wipe up mess.

From 18 months DC1 was an absolute dream. I love spending time with them (no longer dress my non-working day or the weekends!) and they're just so much fun, it's a completely different experience.

I have an 8 week old now too so I'm back in the monotony of small baby life which just isn't something I enjoy, but easier this time as I know it will pass and they'll be a 2 year old soon enough and I'll be able to enjoy them so much more.

It will get better, I promise!

Eat the kitkats, OP.

Thanks for writing this op, I feel the same and my ds is 15 mths early 16nths. He's HARD work at the mo. The winging, screaming, biting, eating stuff that he shouldn't, climbing.
I hope it's get better too

I found that age incredibly hard OP. Whenever I'm a bit down about not being able to have another I think of that age or look at my 18 month old niece - hard work.

I know people say this but it does get better honestly and they become cool little people that you can watch a film with or leave for a minute to go to the loo.

I hope you ate ALL the Kitkats

Thanks everyone - its reassuring to find I'm not the o lying one.

His sleep has also gone to shit for no discernible reason. He was awake for nearly 2 hours last night. In the end I just had to let him cry - he just wanted to get up and play.

I'm so tired of all of it.

Oh bless you, I remember that feeling so well. The relentlessness of it all. Never having a second to myself. It's a stage, and it does get better. Honestly. Just keep swimming!
Tag team with your other half to get a small amount of time to yourself each day, have a walk or do something you enjoy. Tell your Mum/ Dad/ Sister/ friend how hard you're finding it and see if they can help at all. See if you're entitled to free 2yr childcare or if finances would allow for some extra childcare. Keep the faith that it won't always be this difficult