PND or sheer exhaustion?

[doldrums13]

Background is baby is six months old and the longest she has slept for is an hour unless she's being held or in a sling. HV has said that is should get better now that she is being weaned. Lactation consultant says there is no evidence for this and to try co-sleeping overnight. Following all advice given and no difference.

I have reached the point where I cannot cope. The house is a state. The washing piles are huge. There is no food in. I am so scared I'm going to hurt her or myself or both. My husband is a dick and I'm not really talking to my friends as I just don't have the energy.

I've been to the HV and they've said to keep an eye on my mood. When does it become PND? I've been feeling increasingly worse for months.

Morning how are you today? I’ve very much experienced where you are. I ended up sleep training, formulas and antidepressants but you have to do what suits you ( and to some extent the baby) . Hope the GP is helpful

I know I keep saying it but thank you all for listening and thank you for believing me rather than thinking I'm just being "dramatic".

Next doctors appointment is next Tuesday so that's booked in. My mum took her at five so I've had two hours in a row! She's done the school run for the older ones and has promised me a nap when she gets back.

H has sent a tedious message this morning that ignores everything but the mess in the kitchen. I've blocked him for a bit of space today.

You mum sounds great. Get her to stay as long as she can to help you. I’ve been where you are and it is absolute torture.

@doldrums13 good luck for the GP tomorrow

Thank you @Whattodowithaminute.

My mum is going after the appointment but has been amazing. I'm feeling more human this week.

I’m glad you’ve had a bit of a break with your mums help; do be super honest with the GP though, how you were feeling last week isn’t ok and will not be sustainable. Has DH helped at all or gained understanding of how much you’re dealing with at the moment?

The GP was odd, they think its low blood pressure and reading between the lines would look at breastfeeding being the cause(?!). Think that maybe a dead end.

My husband still doesn't get it but we've papered over the cracks while I've got support from my mum and we'll need to address it at some point when I've got the energy to.

@doldrums13 that’s an unusual diagnosis; did the GP think the baby has any reflux signs? I’m glad your mum had helped for the short term but still feel worried about you. Take it as easy as you can.

Sorry to hear you are going through this. Sleep deprivation is absolute torture, my eldest was a shocking sleeper. However, I had a supportive DH who slept in a separate room so his snoring didn't disturb me, and would get up 5am, sometimes 4am, to give me a couple of hours sleep before he went to work. Your partner is giving me the rage just through reading your posts! He needs to hear some truths about how debilitating this is for you.

I need to make another appointment about baby. It's all a bit disheartening to be honest.

I don't know why my husbands being like this. He was the ideal partner the last two times.

@doldrums13 that must be really hard for you. How is DH mood generally? Is he participating in other things that would normally bring him pleasure (hobbies etc)? If not maybe he needs to see the GP as well....

These years are pretty gruelling-I understand you have older children too? How old? I think the step to 3 can be a real stretch on relationships...