I'm currently at home recovering from being in hospital...again. I have a rare disorder which means I can become seriously ill quite quickly and have to be rushed into hospital. I try to manage this illness by medication and diet but generally it does what it wants. My life is controlled by it, it has to be for me to stay alive.
I work despite this but am struggling to cope, my dr had advised me to give up my job as I'm putting too much pressure on myself. I only work 2 afternoons and 1 full day a week but this feels like full time to me.
Financially we re struggling, my husband works fulltime and does private jobs too to bring in more money, we rent a tiny flat which is cheap for where we live but still expensive for us. We are on the council list for a place and because of my health we re quite high up but it could still be a year away.
I feel selfish if I give up my job as it puts more pressure on my husband when we are already struggling yet I also feel like for once in my life I need to put myself first. My boss is brilliant and very supportive but she's running a business not a charity and must be fed up with all my days off. I force myself to go into work even when I'm just out of hospital because I feel I should but as I'm getting older it's getting tougher.
I just need some perspective with this really.