I can’t calm down before op tomorrow

[naericht]

I’m having an op tomorrow morning, very minor to be honest - it’s just for diagnosis of interstitial cystitis and a bladder/tubes stretch ... I’m not good with hospitals at all as a patient, I’m a dreadful worrier .

I also get palpitations due to anxiety and I’ve got myself convinced that I’ve got some sort of hidden heart disease ... and that the anaesthetic will cause some issues ... I used to work in neurosurgery and you know when they say a little knowledge is a bad thing .. been googling all sorts ..

I can’t settle down and I’ve got twenty four hours to go . I keep thinking I won’t get home and my mum needs me to look after her , she won’t manage if I’m not there for whatever reason , even had nightmares last night .

Asked GP for diazepam to help me calm down tonight , they’ve said no definitely not as hospital will give me temazepam or something as soon as I’m there and they don’t want to chance ODing by mistake . I can’t settle at all .

Aww, bless you, OP. At least it's over now. You've been very brave, well done.

You're doing so well. Hope you're able to get some rest tonight. Give that blanket of yours a hug if it helps comfort you a little.

Congratulations, you've done it!
Rest well tonight x

Morning @naericht, hope you are feeling a little better today.
Did you manage to get any sleep - it can be really tough on a ward, can't it?
Do the doctors have any plans for you today, other than hopefully sending you home soon?

Thank you all so so much ! You’ve no idea how much a help this thread was 😊 , I got home at 12 noon ish - doctors said my bladder has only 100ml capacity, far too small so they have stretched it and my urethra too . No evidence of interstitial cystitis they said . Still bleeding quite a bit from bladder but they said that’s normal , will be the case for a few days . They think I was probably born with it being abnormally small. No idea if that means it’s anatomaically small or what .

Does mean I need to go back and have outpatient investigations - and probably have that op done once a year to every two years . That has upset me a bit , but need to talk to GP to get it all clarified properly I think .

I’m very very sore when I pee, and my back, chest , ribs, and tongue are sore - I think I remember something to do with breathing funny - kept taking very deep breaths as I felt like I wasn’t breathing right - when downstairs in recovery , I think the fentanyl was the issue , which is maybe why I’m sore . I woke up unable to even lift my legs or my head which was a horrible feeling .

My mum also pointed out that I would have had my legs up in stirrups for a bit and slept funny last night too (ie slept sitting up a bit) so hat could explain the general aches . The lady oppsite didn’t stop talking til 2am last night , which was difficult, I was in tears as so tired ! Fell asleep when got home , up at 5 for then back in bed about half hour ago .

Have eaten 3 meals of toast, an M&S sandwich, chocolate , two biscuits and water/tea/hot choc . Have done a Tesco order for tomorrow for lucozade, and sandwiches/pasta things so don’t have to worry about eating huge meals .

You are such a survivor!!
Congratulations again, sleep extra well in your own bed 😁

Well done you and glad you're back home.