I really need some help. I've recently become a single mother after separating from ex dp, it's very amicable and was a joint decision and everything going great.....
...except I've realised that I don't really have a life. I have 5 kids 17,17,15,5,3. I stopped working in 2014 when I was 35 weeks pregnant with dc5 then when I was ready to start work again I fell pregnant with dc3 and suffered really badly in the pregnancy so decided not go back until I felt ready. Well dc is now 3 and starts school nursery in January and I'm looking at working part time in the new year.
I've been so busy with life in the last 5 years that it's just occurred to me that I don't really have any friends. I have one best friend who I see once a week. I have other friends but it's been so long since I saw or spoke to them I feel like I'm out of the loop and feel silly sending them a text and striking up a conversation now when I've isolated myself for so long.
I miss having a life, I miss having friends but most of all I miss adult interaction. I spend 98% of the week at home, I'm a homebody and apart from food shopping and the school run I don't really go out unless I have too. Now I know this isn't healthy and I need to branch out but I just love being at home, especially now the weathers turning.
I've been on anti depressants Since the beginning of August I can't even make out if they've made a difference because I still feel a bit like I just want to be invisible and left alone. But at the same time I want to be one of those people who have plans, i want a purpose. I'm 35 and I feel like I've spent the biggest part of my life raising kids and now I'm ready to make changes but I don't know where to even start?
Help would be much appreciated 