As I'm making dinner I was playing 'if you could go back....' in my head. If i could go back and choose again would I have married my husband, had kids etc then the thought hit me like a ton of bricks. If you could go back and choose not to be born......and my mind immediately said yes without hesitation ☹
I don't think i realised how depressed I am. I have been feeling bogged down by life and having some bickering with husband etc but I just feel floored by how easily that thought came to me. Not sure what I want from this thread, think I just needed to get it down as have no one I could admit this to.