I just need to vent

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Currently in week 3 of having a newborn and I'm already losing my mind again. This happened the first time round with my son, and yes it developed into PND, for which I'm on medication as it never disappeared (He's almost 2)

But what's bothering me is the fact that I'm tired, and I just don't feel like interacting today. I'm exhausted. DS constantly repeats things so it drives me up the wall, DH is busy looking for a job and sorting things out for interviews etc, and although we moved back here so we'd be close to family so I didn't have to feel so alone this time round, I still do. I hate being the only one at home fully able to look after the children. I miss working. DD isn't too bad but seems to have rather a lot of wind all the time and DS is constantly on the go and a real handful.

I'll be alright in a minute, I just needed to ranr

I think everyone needs to rant from time to time and dealing with a newborn and a toddler is really hard work. Do you get any time to yourself? It sounds as if you are trying to support everyone but who is supporting you?

Don’t be hard on yourself. Of course your tired you have a newborn and a toddler.
Tell him you’re tired and need more help. Tell the family how you are feeling.

Surely DH can't spend all day looking for jobs and doing interview prep? Can't he take over so you can have a break, even if it's just an hour so you can relax in the bath

@littleduckeggblue he's got to do 40 hours every week, plus he helps run a youth group at our church. He also looks for courses to help him seem more qualified... Not much of an excuse but still. He does cook, wash up, change nappies when they need doing though so he doesn't leave everything to me.

Family do help out. Mum took DS out yesterday afternoon and although I wanted to sleep I didn't. This happens fairly frequently but I don't trust her to watch him for ages (my own trust issues with her may be clouding my judgement as she's probably capable of watching him, but that's another story). My sister also helps out a lot as she loves spending time with us, but this won't last for long once Christmas hits as she'll be working 2 jobs.

DH just doesn't seem to recognise his ability to help unless I ask him to do something, and even then it can be a bit of an argument as we both interpret what we say in different ways.