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[Ohmygodd]

I am so fed up right now.

I have

:a full time job I have to do bpecause I'm broke. Ive been in debt since the day I was born.
:A toddler who never sleeps so I can never so my job properly so my career shot to shit and I get to feel like a crap mum for it.
:A narc mother - I am so tired of her constant crap and eternal victimhood.
:My partner says he loves me but he's treats me like a burden constantly and can't be nice to me for more than 5 mins.
I constantly make the wrong decisions.

I just keep crying and crying.

I wish I could disappear.

I haven't eaten in 24 hours and noone cares.

I feel so alone.

Please just fucking talk to me.

I’m rubbish at good advice but I hear you. Is there any way at all you can have a break?

Oh OP, you poor thing. I’m shortly going to bed but will talk to you and bump this for you while others come along

I bet your toddler is gorgeous and thinks you’re a fantastic mum

I hear you, and I care

So sorry you're feeling crap OP. We're here for a handhold or if you want to offload.

Life really seems shit at times, but there is always hope. And I'll bet there are people out there who genuinely care about you, can you reach out to anybody?

Flowers, hugs and love x

Literally crying right now.

Thank you so much.

I can't have a break I'm juggling too much.

When you feel that low it really does help if you become proactive in making changes, no matter how small.

Start with your sleep. Why doesn’t your toddler sleep? I never had this problem, thankfully. Are they not tired at bedtime? What is their diet like? Where do they sleep? Do they have a set routine? Does a warm bath help them to settle? Would you consider having them in your bed to encourage sleep?

I’m sorry you’re having such a shitty time, I care . Why haven’t you eaten? Can you get yourself something to eat, or a hot sweet drink?

Take it one step at a time.

Go to bed now. Rest. Even if you can sleep just lie down and rest. Try a meditation app.

Tomorrow, make a GP appointment.

Eat something.

I really wish I could sleep. Still up with the kid.

I will have water when he's down.

No food because I was in such a rush this morning to get ds to nursery, I forgot my lunch ..no money to buy.

No dinner because dp dragged his heels about cooking until it was super late and I was back up with the kid.

GP does nothing unless you agree to be medicated.

Would you not agree to medication then? It does help. Sorry to hear things are tough for you x

Book a days annual leave asap, keep toddler in nursery/care and sleep/relax. Don't be tempted to do housework! Sounds like you need a break op!

This was me last week,I promise you will get through this x

I did book annual leave and it helped but then I have to come back to my real life again which is just an endless slog of shit and crap.

Then I have to put the happy face on at work or everyone will point and laugh at the working mother who can't fucking cope.

It sounds like you have a lot to deal with.
I think if you could get help with the child sleeping , so much would be easier .You could probably cope with your rest of your life if you got a decent night's sleep.
No helpful advice as to how, but perhaps you could , with your DH try to put some plan in place .Even alternate nights with DH?
I do feel for you, you seem overwhelmed and could do with some support.

I know it might feel like it, but very few people will be judging, we’ve all been there at some point or other regardless of how together we seem. Take a sick day, your mental health is as valid a reason for taking time off as your physical health, if you were in my team I’d want you to take time off and try and rest and look after yourself. Is there someone you could talk to about how you’re feeling, who could support you and give you a hand or a break, is your partner pulling his weight? You can’t do it all on your own, it’s too much

Hi @Ohmygodd I’m sorry to hear you are in a shit situation right now. I hope you know it won’t last forever, these kids eventually do sleep the little buggers. My toddler was like this she wouldn’t sleep but one day she just slept and even a disco can’t wake her up now.
One day you will sleep well in your comfy bed, fresh sheets and pjs. Sorry I’m just trying to make you look forward to things.

Is there anyone you can talk to? Your mum or a friend? Please eat, or have a sweet with a few biscuits. We care that you haven’t eaten