Today I'm 37 weeks. What should be the start of my plans to bring on labour and just be happy and calm waiting for baby have now gone through the window.
We are buying a house. But due to my baby brain, my DH feeling slightly detached from it as it's not 'his" money and the broker not being clear now we're experiencing at least another month in delays.
I had an extremely traumatic birth the first time so this time I just wanted to be all peace, but I can't. I'm worried we won't get the mortgage, or that the vendors will get annoyed and pull out because of the delays. Our landlords are also very inflexible about the notice (fixed contract or nothing) and we simply don't have the cash to pay the overlap of rent and mortgage, we're already struggling as we are.
It's such an awful place to be. Instead of being happy about the arrival of our baby, I'm just feeling overwhelmed and terrible that the baby will arrive to a stressful home rather than the loving one he deserves.