I get these cyclical periods of depression when mi situation really puts me down.
I really don't like where I live, (in hindsight I should never had made the move with my exH) but I'd never have met my DH so there's always a silver lining.
However as much as I love him and I find comfort in our family and the type of couple we are, it always goes back to "I really don't like the country side and I wished I lived in London).
To make things worse I was made redundant of my very well paid job about 18 months ago. It took me a whole year to find a job that actually needed my skills but the salary is pants (£18k).
I keep thinking of how my life could be better but I can't move (shared custodies with our DC) .
We get buy, but nothing like what we could afford if I were to find a job that pays what I'm worth.
I'm in a better place because at least my skills are being used and will eventually get a payrise but nowhere close to what I should be making in London (or anywhere else for that matter).
I'm very career driven, I used to say my career was my other baby and since I was made redundant I keep mourning it.