Why do my rare nights out always go awry

[Eastie77]

Went out for for one after work. It's now dead on midnight and I'm still out. I'm not drunk or anything but I've stayed out as going home to DP is quite depressing and at least I can engage in intelligent conversation whilst out with my colleagues (he is a massive conspiracy theorist who talks crap). I need to change this dynamic

It's probably because you don't do it often.

It's like not eating often, you're far more hungry if you've missed several meals aren't you? Well, it's exactly the same when you don't go out and relax very often.

Your nights out aren’t the problem. The fact that you in a relationship that makes you want to stay out is.

It sounds depressing - if he thought of going home is that awful, maybe its more a problem with your relationship. Conspiracy theorists are hard work I know - my son is one and just talking to him drags me down since I don't believe anything that he says, and it just goes on and on because he has this need to convince me.

Do you want to live like this forever ? If not, you might want to look at changing your relationship status instead of living like this, dreading going home to him. It won't get any better, as I well know.