I feel abit nervous, i'm not very good at computing etc. This is my first time on mumsnet. My grandson was 3 on the 9th of Sept this year. He's wonderful, a ray of sunshine. He has lived with us since he was 9months old, my daughter for many reasons left him with us. I do have four children my elder son and daughter have left home and my two younger ones are still living at home. I'm 49 and my partner of 14years is 66 very soon. My youngest son was 12 when my grandson came to live with us, hes now 15 and he and his brother who has learning difficulties is 20. Both are amazing uncles. I just wanted to say, we had so much badness about having my grandson. Even in my own family I was accused of wanting another child as my partner and I had made a choice not to have children as I had four and that was what I wanted. We did not have a choice when it came to my grandson my daughter left one day and did not came back I had a text she said we could have Jake. So we did. My partner put his hand on the little ones head. looked and me and said the little lad will be alright with us. That was that, and our lives changed overnight, rooms were changed to give my sons a room each as well as the baby moving near us. we had social services round and the police checking on us to make sure that Jake was okay and not being harmed. My daughter after 48hours went to the hospital to get sectioned but did not follow it through. Three years down the line, I do swimming lessons with him and we both do nursery runs and all the things that go with it. Its exhausting and amazing and a wonderful thing to do second time around. You do learn from the first lot of parenting. We could not now see our lives without him. A blessing and such a cheeky chap who wakes up going Good morning grandma. My heart still melts every day. I just needed to say. We had so much negativity when our grandson came into our lives it was awful. Yet a ray of sunshine he is and I would not change a thing. My daughter has changed her life and has a lovely relationship with her son. Yet for me its a double edged sword. Its fab that this is so. My grandson knows us as grandma and grandpa, his mummy is mummy. Yet he treats the weekends with his mum as though she is the grandparent. Its all rather sad really. Yet always there is happiness as well. If we did not have our grandson then he would have gone into care. Thank you for reading.