I've dropped out of my college course because I'm so exhausted just 2 weeks in (I suffer from a neurological disorder and depression) and my dream of studying at university is over as I can't manage it.
I've just put my PIP appeal for tribunal in so I could have a years wait before my hearing and even then they might deny me the money again so I'll still have no money and still have to rely on my parents and boyfriend.
I've tried to hold down part time jobs before but my mental health gets really bad and I get anxious and end up quitting soon after as I have no energy.
I'm quite honestly exhausted and I have no idea where to turn. NHS mental health help have kept me waiting for over 2 years (I'm 20) with little to no help offered despite numerous attempts at contacting them. I have an eating disorder and got kicked out of a CBT group recently because of it (they thought I was too unwell but I actually enjoyed the group) but the eating disorder referral service won't take me on as my weight isn't low enough despite having a bmi of 16.
It's all fucking useless. I'm just laying in bed now and I honestly wish I could sleep forever.