5 years ago on Monday I lost my little boy at 16 weeks pregnant. I find this time off year very very difficult. I have 3 beautiful happy children but find myself wondering what life would off been like if things were different. Only when I feel low I tend to worry about my photos as I refused a photo off my baby boy after I had him and i always look back at my 3 children's photos wondering who would he of looked like. Only what seems to worry me the most is the lack off photo I have with me and my children together Im only in about 40 with my daughter in her first year and it now makes me sad but only around this time off month. Not sure if it's because I refused the photo off my son or whether it's because I just feel sad. I cherished every moment with my children and remember every milestone but I can't help to feel sad that I'm not in the photos with them. How many photos would you say your in the first year. Does it worry you. Should I blame myself for refusing the only photo I could off had of my son as now I'm still regretting not taking it xx