Worrying about my career or lack of

[clairebear31]

I have a cleaning job at the moment a few hours a day in a school. It fits in well with my children and I get to be there for them a lot. My husband is a shift working so works good around this and clubs etc. Although I’m happy enough I often feel I should be doing more? I have terrible anxiety which is medicated and that takes over a lot to with thinking I’m not good enough and I can’t do anything else.

Does anyone feel the same? I don’t have much ambition apart from being a mum and wife. I also help my dad out a lot since my mum died.

If you’re content and it works for you and your family, then great! Are you worried about it because you feel you “should” want something different, or because you actually do?
If you do want to do something different, could you do a course online or at a local college?

I feel like I should be doing more. I think once my children are older I will change jobs. Not sure what to though. I wonder if it’s anxiety making me feel this way

My lack of career gives me the fear. It paralyses me because I don't know what direction to go in. I could do anything but end up doing nothing. I'm happy to have spent time with my children and done small jobs to fit around but I miss my old London life and job that feels like happened to another person.

Getting on a course helps.

It’s loosing my confidence too in this process I can’t even remember my life before

Have you considered volunteering at the school too? My friend did this, listening to children read. In time an admin job came up and she got it, I would think in part because they knew and trusted her. You might find it rewarding and similar hours to what you’re already doing.

Yes that’s a good idea