Have you ever given up on yourself but then found a way?

[sayalittlerayer]

For whatever reason you've found yourself in despair and thought you've completely lost yourself, and then gone and found the real you in some way would you care to share

I was in my early 20’s a few hundred miles away from home working a minimum wage job that I needed to do for a year as a stepping stone onto a postgraduate course that I had already been rejected from once. The boss was a bully, the house I was sharing was huge and freezing and I had near daily panic attacks. It was pretty awful.
Out of my tiny wage I paid for some counselling for myself, one of my housemates became a good friend and from a tax rebate I bought myself a flute from a pawn shop and got some cheap lessons from a music student. I got my dad to post me an old sleeping bag to keep me warm in bed. I got on the course, had a fabulous time for a year and met my now husband.

Definitely. I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease at 17. I was utterly lost for a good 10 years. Life carried on, I dragged myself through uni, got engaged to a lovely man, bought a house. To the outside world it wasn’t holding me back but inside I was a shell. I didn’t know who I was,I was trying to keep up with everyone.

I don’t know what changed. I think I just got older, more confident, realised that life’s not a race or a competition and I can go at my own pace. I can say no to things, I can spend the day in bed if I need to, I don’t need to feel guilty, I’m not a burden, I’m the best I can be and that’s good enough.

I’ve felt like this for about 13 years now and I really was desperate at time before that so never give up, change can always happen.

Thank goodness you found yourselves, found happiness within.

One day at a time