I go back to work tomorrow. I am a teacher so the last time I actually worked was the start of July last year. I found mat leave hard for the first 7 months or so. DS would only sleep on me or in the car, i had no downtime at all, i had to go to bed with him he waking every 90 mins or so etc etc.
In the last 4 months its gradually got easier. He naps well in his cot. He sleeps much much better than he did.
I feel desperately sad about going back to work. Its compounded by the fact that financially i dont actually need to but I did enjoy my job and I dont want to lose my career.
We have a lot going on in the next few weeks somits going to be crazily busy. We have a lovely childminder but I'm so scared he wont sleep there or he will be unhappy.
I've taken a step down at work so I can do 3 days a week but it gets so busy.
Injust dont know how I'm going to cope both emotionally and physically and I cant believe this is all coming to an end. I feel like I didnt enjoy it and now it's gone and it's too late.