I havd a lot to be thankful for I know. But I just feel so resentful and hurt and unhappy everyday. Married with 2 dc. Feel disconnected with dh. If I talk to him he disregards it and says we have to get on with life (he's the type who looks for work to fill his days and not really affectionate)
Dc are great . Work has improved. The few friend I have I feel use me so I turn down seeing people. Even dh sister is unpleasant and times and I just hate the world.
I am in a position now I have a few hours to myself each day. I need to get happy. Stop blaming others.
Happy to read a book or get some help. Sometimes I feel like I want to get a terminal illness to have a way out wish is horrible selfish and disgusting so that makes me feel worse.