Should I feel guilty?
I’m returning back from maternity leave in October and have filled out my flexible working request form. I don’t know if it will be approved.
I had intended to only take 6 months leave but it’s turned into 8 months (DD will be 7 months when I go back as she was overdue). I had wanted to go back full time (and still do) but due to childcare costs it’s better for me to be part time financially. I also have PND and only really feel like I’m turning a corner so I’m sometimes enjoying my baby now.!
I feel like I’m letting everyone down. I’m the first in my department to have a child as we are all reasonably young. We all do crazy long hours and I can’t do that anymore. I was also in a trainee position and everyone else is going to be progressing far quicker career wise than me.
I know I shouldn’t have had a child but I have gynaecological problems so I wanted to have a child now than have more struggles later on.
Sorry just rambling