My mother has had severe and chronic mental illness all her life. This made her abusive to us when we were growing up both physically and emotionally. Because she was vulnerable emotionally she tended to develop huge crushes on people - one of these was on the local vicar and she used me as a way of getting attention from him, so I was made to go to church, join the youth groups and music groups, and take confirmation classes from him. But what I had completely forgotten, until my brother reminded me, was that I was also sent to private sessions with him, where he would hypnotise me in his study. The only thing I can remember of these private sessions is of him taking me up the bell tower and being terrified because I'm scared of heights. What I'm finding unsettling is that I am well-known for being able to remember things in great detail and very clearly, especially from childhood, but I can't remember much of this at all - just a fleeting memory of the bell tower. Would you want to know what had happened in these sessions or to leave well alone?