In the last five years or so, I have found myself getting into right states over imagining the worst possible things happening to the people I love. If DS is away from me for any length of time, I worry (needlessly) that I'm not there if something goes wrong. If someone else is taking care of him, I panic that he'll be in a car accident, or end up in hospital. I have truly awful, awful nightmares about his death and wake up petrified until I've checked on him or called whoever he is with.
It's not just with DS, but withDP and DM. They are the three most important people in my life and I spend a ridicous amount of time panicking about things that will likely never happen.
It's now got to the point where my catastrophising is feeding into every area of my life. I can't concentrate, worry endlessly, don't sleep well, nervous habits that I fought so hard to get under control are returning(namely nail biting and hair pulling).
I have a constant knot of worry in my tummy.
I do not want to be like this anymore. Has anyone ever got past this? What do I do?