Feel thoroughly miserable and lonely

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I'm feeling so upset tonight, I could cry.

I'm 30 and I live alone and feel really lonely tonight. Usually I'm out on a Friday night but tonight I had no plans. Everyone else seems to be out with their partners. Normally being single doesn't bother me too much but tonight I feel really weepy about it. Everyone else seems to get into relationships so easily and yet I'm perpetually single with no one to cuddle up with on a Friday night.

On top of that I had breakfast today with a friend and her one year old, and I've found out recently my eldest sister's pregnant. I'm delighted for my sister and my friend's son is lovely but I had an abortion a couple of years ago which I really struggled with afterwards, and it would have been their second birthday this month. I don't know if it's the 'anniversary' getting to me but I could just cry.

I've been for a late run and had a nice dinner to try and shake the feeling but I can't. It feels like everyone around me is happy and settled and I never will be.

I don't know why I'm posting really. I suppose I'm hoping someone will humour me and it might help to talk.

I'm really sorry to hear you feel low. I suspect it's a combination of feeling a bit blue because of the date, and meeting friend/sister who seem to have what you would love.

You say you usually have plans on a Friday night. Are these dates? Or plans with friends. Are you looking for a long term relationship and what have you tried in the way of meeting someone?

Just wanted to let you know someone was reading and listening.

Thank you so much.

I don't actually want children, I just found the aftermath of the abortion difficult and can't help but wonder what would've been if I'd made a different decision.

Plans with friends. I'm busy with something most nights and feel much better when I am. I'm not desperate to be in a relationship, but I have thought lately that it would be quite nice to meet someone. I've been single for ten years though so something must be putting men off. I've had plenty of flings, but always where they can't be long term relationships.

I'm out most nights, have plenty of friends and a good job, and I don't think I'm bad looking, and yet decent men never show any interest.

Oh, poor you, what a crappy night. I always find that this is the time of night where, if you're feeling a bit low, life always feels really bleak. My best advice would be to get yourself tucked up in bed and let today be over.

You sound really lovely, I'm sure you know really that there's nothing wrong with you and the right man is out there. In the mean time, you sound like you have good friends and family (but I know that doesn't help you tonight, and it's ok to feel pissed off at the world).

Get some rest, things normally seem brighter in the morning

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Well today does indeed feel much better. Thanks everyone

Glad to hear you're feeling better. We all have those nights where everything feels really bleak and everyone else's life looks happier. I always think looking back with 'if only's' is guaranteed to make me feel worse! It's easy to think life would have been better/happier if we'd made a different decision, or things had worked out in a different way but I suspect that it wouldn't.

You do sound lovely and as though you have a lot going for you, so the right partner might be just round the corner! The worst I ever felt was in a shitty marriage where my ex-H made me feel worthless and awful. I had quite a while alone and am now happy with a DH who makes me feel good - but honestly....being alone was better than a miserable relationship.

Hope you have a good weekend.