I’m struggling this summer holidays with my mental health and the kids. I absolutely adore my children but I hate being a mum sometimes. I feel like that’s all I do. The minute my youngest wakes at 4am until they go bed it’s none stop. The oldest two (9&11) argue constantly, are rude to me sometimes. There just seems to be always noise. Never a quiet moment where I can just stop and think. I’m mentally drained. This weekend has been hard. Husband has been working from 4.30am until 8pm. I’m shattered.
It’s so full on. I have zero energy to want to leave the house on my own. My depression is at a mega low and I feel like I’m resenting my homelife. Facebook and Instagram isn’t helping as you see women my age being able to go away for weekends with their parents without their kids. Iv deleted them now.
We got married 3 weeks ago and went on holiday as a family, it was fab but not the same. We haven’t had one day together in 5 years.
I don’t know how much more I can take. I’m already on max strength tablets for my borderline personality disorder. But I feel depressed.
I want a break. I want to go away with my husband for one night. I want to go out in the day with my husband. I want to go away so I can enjoy the kids when I get back. We have no one. No one to have them for a day. No one.
I’m close to breaking I really am. I can’t even go doctors because I would have to drag all 3 kids with me.