My GF of 6 years now discovered that i cheated in 2016 and I felt horrible about it, I honestly did not think the relationship should continue as I think i knew i was wrong, she was devastated and asked for some time off. I pleaded with her and honestly, i knew that was it, as much as i wanted to speak and apologize to her i didn't expect that we shall come together one day.
Then boom she comes back and I'm glad. We try to continue the relationship and all was well until recently when I just discovered that after we returned, she got into an affair that lasted two months and didn't work out, she began developing feelings for the guy and they had sex a couple of times.
I'm broken and still thinking to myself, we shouldn't have been together in the first place since I messed up. We have a child and my GF refused any further premarital sex long before she discovered i was cheating.
So I was taken aback when I discovered what happened (but hey that's what I get for cheating in the first place), we are trying to work it out,we regularly have sex now (2 times aday) and its great to be honest, but does this relationship deserve to work? i see her differently now and just can't trust her.
She cried and begged for the relationship to continue after i discovered her cheating, she pleaded to be with me and wants a second chance (Shes never indicated to me how much she loves me as she has done over the past few days), our parents have already met and discussed about our marriage (Slated for early 2020) but I want to call it off as i dont feel i deserve her (Had it not been for my antics she will not cheating), shes very religious and goes to church on a regular basis (Something she's ready to stop as she met this new felow in these church gatherings). Honestly, when i look back, i think i deserve all the pain i'm getting, but does this relationship deserve a second chance?