I’m trying to figure out why I spend every weekend feeling so blue and anxious! It’s like I finally get headspace from the kids and then start thinking of all the projects and admin I need to get done/should be doing at the weekend, but i should also be spending time with DH as a family. I feel pretty lonely but shouldn’t do as I have seen friends 7 days out of the last 9 
This weekend pretty typical -
Saturday: all got up, hung out, walked to local shop for lunch stuff all together. During DS2’s nap, DH took eldest ice skating and I did a bit of work.
In the afternoon we played in the garden, I went for a run, DH did kids dinner and bed, I made our dinner, watched a load of Orange is the new black while folding laundry.
Today we’re going to a farm and this afternoon going to DH’s friend’s house to see their newborn as our eldest kids really get on. I don’t know them and so that’s making me worried and I just don’t want to go and spend an afternoon with people I don’t know. Which I know is how you get to know people and it’s lovely to be invited but I just don’t think I have it in me. I can either stay home or suck it up, either will be fine but the problem is why am I so miserable and reluctant?? I also have to do a spot of work today but that will be fun (I am home mon-fri and run workshops every few weekends so nothing major or stressful).
Anyway. I just end up looking at people like my SIL who has 3 kids, PhD, works basically curing cancer and I wonder how she does it when I’m here pretty much doing nothing and ending up so miserable and worried and the house is a bombsite at the weekend and I have nothing to show for myself Mon-fri is generally enjoyable and productive!
Anyone else just wind up feeling a bit empty at the weekends?? So strange!