Am I too old?

[Sunsetdays]

I’m 52. I have recently recovered from a serious illness (just got the 5 year clear milestone). My health isn’t what is was though although I’m much luckier than some. I had to give up my career when I became ill and I don’t want to return to the high pressure. I care for my dd who is disabled. She is a real joy and such a ray of sunshine. I actually feel about 102, that my life is over, like all my best times are behind me. Does anyone else in their 50s feel this way or am I just moaning!!!

Are you too old for what?

It sounds like you’ve got a lot of good stuff going on. Your DD (who probably will keep you young and active) and your recent good news for your health. Plus you know what you don’t want (high pressure job) and you don’t have it.

It also sounds like you’ve been through the mill a bit and that has no doubt taken it out of you a bit.

But imho 52 is not old. You can do anything at 52. Start new careers, new hobbies, new friendships - the possibilities for you are endless. But take time, take stock and ask yourself what you would really like to do now.

I feel like that today because I've had two hours sleep... puppy plus crisis with eldest son!!!

I also have a disabled adult son who I care for, but no I don't feel like that.
I DO think you have to find new things that perk your interest in life...I took up classical guitar lessons a year ago, and while time is limited I find practising gives me a great sense of well being and achievement.
Another example..my Mum moved 300 miles 10 years ago, knowing no-one. But she joined a choir, and a yoga class, and teaches crochet ..and we have to schedule visits as she is so busy :)
I often feel physically exhausted (I work in a special school) and come home to a house of still quite dependent adults, but I make ME time.

Find something you'd like to try, and if nec arrange care so you have a few hours a week to do it..it really helps!