Unsure how to feel

[BarbaraBlue]

Found that my husband was searching for escorts local to where we live and local to where he works.

I confronted him and he said was was such for a bit of excitement the same as looking at porn.

We haven’t been intimate for a while as I’ve just not been in the mood for it and when ever we have he feels he always initiates it. Now though he tells me the sex for past five years has been shit basically.

I don’t know about anyone else but that doesn’t make me want to have sex even more now because I’ll always be worrying if it was good enough.

What would your thoughts or reaction be to this?

Oh darling. What a horrible sounding man.

Honestly, I would think that he had no respect for me. And then I'd ask myself what was stopping me from having more respect for myself. My hunch is that the answer to that question lies in the fact that you're been treated like crap by him for a long time. Maybe longer than you realise at this moment.

Go find somebody who wants you and isn't putting you down in several ways. I'm pretty sure that will do wonders for your desire to have sex.

He's an idiot. I'm sorry.