Ffs why does grief sometimes hit you like a fucking bus?

[ChoudeBruxelles]

It’s nearly 7 years since my mum died and I’ve Ben crying and off all evening because I just miss her.

I lost my mum 4 months ago. The grief is still raw. I'm reading this thread wondering if things will feel better eventually. At the moment I can't believe what has happened. Some days are better than others but I'm so tearful about silly things.
I want to call round or phone her about seriously trivial stuff that I know she'd be interested in but can't!
Just miss her.

My mum was never the sort of mum you would turn to for comfort, most of her life she put alcohol before everything.
Yet sometimes I just crave her love and affection and wish I could cuddle up and have my forehead stroked by her.

I had to go through a very upsetting situation last week and thought I was dealing with it well. Then I was singing along to a song on the radio and just burst in to tears wishing I had her here.

It sucks.