Depressed about having to stop breastfeeding :(

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DC is 6wo. For various reasons, I've been advised to stop breastfeeding. I've had mastitis a few times since birth, few other interfering and the antibiotics have really damaged my supply and it's become so sore. I've not fed him once today (been doing it gradually for a few days) and and my right has dried up. I've been crying all day over it, I look at him and he's so perfect and I feel like I'm doing wrong by him. I just wanted to do my best by him and now I feel like I've failed him sorry for the rant but no-one listens in real life, been told it's stupid as I can formula feed. I just feel so sad

So sorry op. I understand. I started combination feeding with formula when my dd lost quite a lot of weight. After bf, top up with formula, then pumping for ages then repeat, lost a lot of sleep, developed very bad pnd and was put on meds and told best not to bf with them. I was heartbroken doing my last feed. My dd thrived I got better slowly and she is now a strapping strong 5 year old. The pain and sadness will pass but sending love for you now x

Its disgraceful that there is such a pressure to breastfeed but such a lack of necessary support.
Leaving a TT till mid August is ridiculous.

OP massive sympathies. I would say you have 2 options:
If you can afford to, get the TT dealt with privately. That will give you the best shot at BF.
Or
Just switch to formula.

Which of these seems like a relief to you? Honestly it's not worth the anguish, it isnt going to make a massive difference to him.

Can you pay for a private IBCLC to do the tongue tie division?

A significant tongue tie will be causing all of the things you describe. You've done amazingly to get this far with a tongue-tied baby.

I couldn't BF DC1 (managed fine with DC2) and had to stop with DC3 so I could start a medication.

DC3 was born with a genetic condition, had a NG tube to feed her until she was 1 so I pumped rather than fed (worst of both worlds!!) but the guilt of having to stop was awful.

I needed medication as I was poorly and unable to look after all my kids properly but my baby was small, had "failure to thrive" and I felt my milk was the least I could do for her given her condition and challenges... went for the medication option when DC3 was 6mo after a lot of soul searching and baby was fine.

Guilt is such a wasteful emotion. You do what you need to do and don't worry. All will be fine!!

There’s absolutely no point feeling guilty, you have done nothing wrong. You’ve tried your absolute best to BF and it hasn’t worked out, no big deal. Honestly, this will not matter in a year or two and definitely won’t be anything you even think about in ten years time.