Can I have a womanly pat on the back please?

[ViciousTrollop]

Today is day 1 of my new life (she says hopefully).

A gnarly combo of anxiety, low self-esteem, negative thinking patterns and past relationship trauma has been threatening my lovely new relationship since the beginning but things have recently come to a head and now I have decided to take control and actually change the situation.

I have booked my first counselling session for next week. Plus a GP appointment. And I'm not drinking for the foreseeable (exacerbated it all).

I need to take proper care of myself and sort my demons. So that I can be happy and stable and then be able to be happy and stable in a relationship.

Just feel a bit wobbly and scared.

But also quite brave. Argh.

You can do it!

You need a new user name though!

Have a pat on the back from me!
Congratulations, you've made some really positive first steps. Best of luck x

ZenTrollop maybe 😂

Thanks Soola 💐

Pat on the back from me too!

Anxiety is awful, so I wish you all the best facing your demons, good luck

Well done on your decision to take control-it’s a huge decision to make.
I hope the counselling helps, I had some a few months ago, and despite initial reservations, I found it a huge help

What an inspiring post OP. Remember that even if you have a wobble on the way, you can still get where you want. Keep that goal in sight.

Thanks everyone.

Here's to owning and fixing our shit and to getting better [mug]

You are being very brave OP. Best of luck

Well done you. Onwards and upwards ☝☝

Have scheduled another appointment with another counsellor. My thinking is that there is no guarantee that I will 'click' with any particular one so of I see two I can then (hopefully) decide which one I gel with best and continue with them.

Does that make sense?

So expensive, can't really afford it tbh but my dad gave me some rainy day money earlier this year and this seems like a more prudent use of it than the original plan of a nice European city break 😐.