Struggling to get over break up

[Sammie68]

Hi all
I’m reaching out for some guidance or someone who has been through something similar to reassure me I will get through this.
My husband of 22 years told me he loved me but was no longer in love with me. I since found out from someone else that he had been having an affair and he had feelings for her and wanted to be with her. Also he admitted cheating on me with numerous women before we married and flirting on Facebook, Twitter and plenty of fish during marriage. We have two teenage children.
The trust has completely gone and I’ve filed for divorce. It’s been nearly a year since we separated I have the children with me. He’s moved on living the care free life and seeing her when he likes and running around after the children like never before but perhaps that’s a guilt things.
How do you rebuild your life from this? I feel vulnerable when husband had them loads

I wonder if you're still disorientated and in limbo. Like you can't cross over from your safe old patterns into this new reality. Probably you need to turn inwards and be willing to confront who you really are and and courageously cross the threshold. Therapy might help get you over this hurdle. Good job getting this far. You've got your freedom and whole life ahead of you.

Thank you for responding and for your advice. I am trying it’s so hard when someone has been a part of your life for so long and then betray you. I’m just going through so many emotions right now, I can’t believe I am where I am but know it’s the right thing to do walk away. Still hurting deeply. Unsure of the future. Everyone keeps saying I’m doing great and I will get there but I’m living day by day at the moment. Don’t know where my life’s going right now. I’ve had counselling right at the beginning which helped.