Ok this is looooooong so sorry in advance.
I come from a small town in Ireland where everyone knows everyone. I hate it. I moved to Liverpool for uni when I was 18 and was there for 10 years. I feel like my soul is home when I'm there. Had my first baby there, me and my partner went through rough patches but were doing good, I fell pregnant again. He has kids from a previous relationship. We decided we would all move into a bigger house to be a family unit. Then things deteriorated quickly from there. Normal relationship problems. Anyway we split up. He left the house. I couldn't afford to keep it on by myself. I was 8 months pregnant with a 2 year old and no money and no family around. So I moved back home to Ireland. I didn't want to leave. I had no choice. We've been staying at my mums and I've been able to pay off my credit card and save a few thousand pound. So I'm in a better position financially. I made plans whilst on maternity leave for a job in Ireland and a school for my now 3 year old. Trouble is I feel I only did those things to keep my family happy. I don't really want to be here. I feel really homesick for Liverpool. The childrens father comes over every month or so to see them. They have lots of cousins and stuff here. But it feels wrong. My 3 year old is really missing his dad. I feel like he's being deprived. Also I love my job in Liverpool and cant see me working anywhere else. But I would be totally alone. I can't rely on the childrens father to help out as he has other commitments.
WWYD?
Stay in Ireland? Or go back to Liverpool?