Nobody ever stops to think if I'm ok

[Ofjoseph]

Nobody ever asks.
Nobody ever thinks to.
I'm not ok.
I've cried on and off all afternoon.
Tomorrow I'll go to work and I'll pretend everything is ok. I'm not ok.
I'm always there for others. Not a single person even gives me a second thought. I'm not sure how much more I can take.

I'm the same op I've been a single parent for 10 years now and I'm literally so lonely

All my friends are married and are always busy with husbands, husbands friends wife's etc

On paper I have at least 8 good friends but even after reaching out and telling them how lonely I am I've noticed not one of them has tried to invite me to anything or even just call me

I honestly can go weeks without actually talking to another adult, my job doesn't involve talking past the general hi, rubbish weather

I'm really down this weekend my best friend is always busy and saw on social media this weekend she's been socialising all weekend with other groups I haven't been out with her for at least 2 years

My kids are old enough to be left so it isn't even like I'm unavailable due to childcare

I just realise no one actually gives a fuck

Bless ya. Sending hugs

OP please speak to your GP about anti-depressants. They really have helped me. They only take a week or so to take effect, so you could be feeling better soon.

Have you been teaching very long?

When I have been feeling like this, I’ve been to see a counsellor. Just having someone listening to me when things were shit helped a lot and remove a lot if the feeling if isolation I felt.

You are not alone, please see a doctor. A course of anti depressants, some counselling, could make a huge difference. Please look after yourself.
Can you borrow a cat 🐱

Hugs @Ofjoseph

My counsellor advised me to get a notebook / journal and write everything down. Then, write down one positive thing that happened and one plan for a treat for myself to look forward to - even if it was just a bar of chocolate or something. The act of 'getting it out of my head' was really cathartic.

Thank you everyone. I don't particularly want medication. I will probably go to the doctors when I break up for the summer. Really appreciate you listening.

the more you give, the more people take!

Your job is stressful but only a few more weeks to go. Be kind to yourself during the holidays, hopefully the stress will ease and your mood lighten. If it starts to come back as the new term looms, go and see a doctor.

I know exactly where you are coming from re no body asking you about you. It bloody hurts esp if you've spent time and time listening to them. I'm not in the inner circle at work so I'm ok to talk at, not to talk too it seems. I'm on leave today and tomorrow, no one will ask of I had a nice time.i accept that now. I love my job but dont like most of the other workers, so I've learned to ignore that fact that I mostly get ignored. That does help in a weird way. Tm

No words of advice really but try to think of yourself and your needs ahead of others. Hope you feel better soon and it takes a trip to the docs to start the process, that's ok sometimes j really hate human beings.

Ok weird point - I'd you are alone at home, crying and stressed, I recommend a jigsaw. A hard one. Jigsaw are my go to tiol for coping with my anxiety. Some music on, dining table and I can spend hours jigsawing away. It takes your mind away from your thoughts and focuses you on the task at hand and getting each piece correctly placed is a great spur to carry on to get another piece, then another ... jigsaws should be on the NHS (only half joking)

How are you feeling today @Ofjoseph ?