I’m not living because I’m scared of dying

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I’ve gradually come to a halt , stopped going out , stopped exercising , all sorts because I’m so frightened I’m going to die and going to go to Hell ( strict Catholic upbringing). I get intrusive thoughts about various scenarios and I’m worried it’s ‘instinct’ or premonitions or something , I look for signs during the day too . Spend every waking moment terrified .

GP knows but is relatively unconcerned , says it’s anxiety , not much anyone can do .

Family are aware and say I don’t appear anxious to them and just need to get my act together .

I’ve felt this way since I was about 19, I’m now 28 . I’m so frightened all the time . I’ve been looking at medical journals just now about heart conditions (as I’ve been having palpitations) and now got myself in a panic again .

How do I calm myself down ?

I understand how you feel.
I took myself to the gp-explained exactly how i felt and was offered cbt and medicaton.

Do you have any family member that will come on board and help get you out? You need to remember/learn how to enjoy life but it'll take time. I don't know that you can be talked out of this, it's a rational fear in your mind, so it's something you need to unlock. Sorry I dont think I'm much help ...

op, it sounds horrible and like you've not been properly supported. It could well be ocd (have a look on the mind page about intrusive thoughts and ocd) but whether it's anxiety/ocd/something else, you need proper support. Go see a different doctor. I know some doctors can be terrible at acknowledging m.h issues but there are plenty of GPs who are good at their jobs and will help you, just keep going until someone helps you.

Try some cbt for health anxiety OP. It’s not instinct or premonitions, it’s just anxiety - that’s exactly how it works and it’s awful.