Anyone awake?

[MillyMoo1113]

DD took an overdose last night, we're in hospital, she's sleeping and the medication to counteract the effects of the paracetamol seem to be working.

But I can't sleep. The ward has crying children and a boy struggling to breathe. It's no one's fault. The noise can't be helped.

But I'm obsessively watching DDs heart rate machine. I can't switch off, I can sleep anywhere anytime. I'm exhausted. But I can't sleep.

Keep me company?

for you. It must have been awful.

When my dc need stitches I find I'm relatively calm whilst all the drama is happening but once they are safe and being cared by professionals then my mind starts going into a weird hypervigilant mode and I can't sleep - I almost become obsessed with listening to them breathe in their sleep. I'm not sure if it's all that a adrenaline rushing round my system but I understand the need for watching the heart rate machine.

I hope you both have lots of support.

I'm here until midnight. I'm at work! I work in paediatric transport strangely enough.

Would you like to talk about your DD or is it distraction you're after?

Distraction and to talk I think.

She's been through a lot in the last three years. I split from exDh three years ago. We both have new partners that she seems to get on with. Happy for mine to taxi her home from gigs and festivals!

She won't tell me what's wrong which is think is the hardest thing. I know she's had problems at school, she's a history of self harm, she also feels under a lot of pressure in school to achieve 8s/9s

She gets on with her brother as much as any siblings do, he's 17 and bone idle which infuriates her.

I'm not sure about a lot of the friends she's made through gigs and music, but they seem to be what makes her happy.

She's not been in school properly for weeks due to her mental health.

I don't know what to do, how to be with her other than reminding her I love her.

Camhs will see her before she's discharged but I think I need to see a counsellor myself too

Going to bed now but didn't want to read and run. Hopefully you'll suddenly nod off and get some rest. Sorry to hear about yr dd. Maybe this awful thing will be a turn in the tight

Sorry.. posted too early.. plus phone playing up. Was trying to say that hope this will turn things in the right direction and will help her to open up to you about whats happening with her although sometimes its difficult for the person to actually identify it themselves. I feel for you both. Try to rest. Sending you a huge hug.

Didn't want to read and run. I can't imagine how you're feeling OP, just from one mum to another I wanted to say I'm sorry to hear you are going through this and hope that your daughter gets all of the support that she needs. She can and will recover from this, and you will come out tighter for it. Take care and try to rest. X

I was you 24 hours ago.
Well not quite, dd didn’t take enough to need further medication once at hospital.
But I’m here
I’m expecting a very tough time to come. Lean on those you are close to. Help comes in unlikely forms sometimes.
Sending a huge (((hug)))
Can’t promise to be up all night, I will sleep tonight. But until I do, I’ll be loitering.

If she is anything like I was then she’ll benefit from your physical presence but also the eventual break. I needed those moments where I was on my own while I was in hospital post od. Just to breathe without wellmeaning pressures.

You’ll get through this, it will not be soon but you’ll get to the other end just like you have done your whole life.

Have they discussed what happens next? Or have you had trouble moving beyond the od and has time frozen?

I’m so sorry millymoo. It’s an awful situation for you both. I hope she’s as well as can be expected. I have no wonderful words of wisdom or advice just a wee hand hold and a reminder to breathe.

How is she this morning Milly?

How's everything this morning Millymoo?

Thank you for all your messages and support. We've both slept on and off all night but it's a noisy ward and it's been a very disturbed night,

They took some bloods around half six to see whether they need to continue the treatment or not.

Once she's physically well she will see a Camhs worker and then we'll know how to proceed from there.

I'm still in shock I think, had a weep during the night. I just feel like I don't know what to say or do for the best. Her dads pressuring to come down but she won't have him here. I know he's her dad but when she's this fragile he needs to respect her wishes.

My family, friend and my amazing DP have been wonderful, As have work. Part of me wants to hide away from everything, but I need to be strong enough to deal with this for her sake

You're exhausted. You can't hide away as that's what yr dds done by trying to escape whatever it is thats causing her anxiety (althou some will say its a cry for help which could also be true). You will be strong. You can do this in a quiet way. She obviously trusts you. Maybe she feels embarrassed so didn't want her dad there? Today will hopefully be looking much brighter for you both. You can do this. Don't be so hard in yourself. Sending you and all the best at supporting yr dd. Glad you have support in rl.

Thank you. We got home late yesterday, we've seen a Camhs worker and she's another appointment on Monday. We're both exhausted, lots of pizza, tea and chocolate. She doesn't want to talk but that's fine as long as she talks to Camhs. Or that's what I keep telling myself. She also doesn't want to see her dad still.

My head hurts, I've slept on and off. We just need to take it one day at a time