I'm awake and having a huge (silent) anxiety attack

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I'm awake. I have been since 3am. I'm having a massive anxiety attack, silently. DP is asleep in the other room. I don't know whether to wake him. I keep trying to calm myself down and failing.

I posted earlier about shower mats. Fuck knows why. I mean I do want one but it's not the issue. Just a distraction.

I am on the autistic spectrum and am very anxious about a work thing where I have absolutely no clarity, and no way of getting clarity. We're also TTC at the moment and it's not happening. It just seems so much is going on.

I have a day job (Which I like but feel I am not able to cope with at the moment, though I am coping, just) and my other work which at present I don't earn through, but have an amazing opportunity with, and it's stressing me out because I am so scared that I will blow it. Everything seems very scary this morning.Everything.

OP you poor thing. It's a beautiful morning (where I am). CN you get up and go for a little walk to breathe in new day? Nature is so calming.

💐

Can you get dressed and go for a walk? If you need a purpose buy a newspaper and pastries come back and have a fresh pot of coffee/ tea sit and read.

There is no magic cure for anxiety but time and time again experts are stating that fresh air and activity help.

@Ivegotthree maybe? I am struggling a bit with the idea of getting dressed and leaving the house, but a walk sounds like a lovely idea. It's nice here as well and not raining, but the anxiety, bad thoughts seem to be coming in waves. Thankyou for replying

Wake DH and talk about it. I find it helps me put things into perspective.

@RippleEffects newspaper and pastries do sound nice, definitely maybe,although am a bit tense to eat - I like Saturday supplements though, thank you

@daffydownlilys I might, it feels bad as I know he is stressed out too at the moment, so trying to let him sleep. He has the cat as well, damn him. I want the cat but if I go in and get him I'll wake DP for sure.

Google grounding techniques, these will help to initially calm you. If you think talking to DH will help then wake him.

Otherwise like others have said I would have a shower, this always helps to calm me and if you don't feel up to going for a walk could you sit in your garden and just focus on breathing deeply, whatever you do remember that it pass.

Its really hard

I second trying to throw on clothes and run out to go for walk for your favourite breakfast or lunch treats and newspaper or something. Think of it as escaping the anxious thoughts !

Know that you cant change it right now but you can change your thoughts by getting up and out.

It's hard to have an anxiety attack when you're singing. Can you put some music on low and hum along? Sounds silly, but it's worked for me in the past.

Hope you feel better soon

Singing is good. Something like Grease soundtrack would probably do it for me.

Do you have anything exciting coming up like a nice holiday?

Walk around your house and try to name:

Five things you see
Four things you can touch
Thee things you hear

Two things you can smell
One thing you can taste

Feel free to swap the order

Always helps me

Try and pick only nice things if you can 😊

If you don't want to or can't get up, use your memories.

For example, I think back to my wedding confetti that smelled so beautiful or remember a really good ice cream I had on holiday x

thank you all, was really good to have you at seven in the morning when I felt all melty. DP got up in the end, and made me some tea.x

It's the worst I have that feeling and have never suffered myself until recently but have a squishy thing to squeeze plus either do sums/times tables or a game hat I have to name every name I can think of with each letter of alphabet. I also do deep breathing a massage my hands. I hate it and wish if would go and never come back