Anyone else feel like they just want to die?

[GymKitJen]

Not in an 'I want to end it' in a suicidal sense, just that I wish it would hurry up and happen. Its all too hard and pointless and inevitable

My friend died recently, my mum has a life limiting illness and it just seems that I'm waiting to get sick and then die.

I have plenty of hobbies, have nights out, a good job, great family holidays so it's not that my life lacks meaning... 🤷‍♀️

Anyone else feel like this?

I don't feel like that no but my parents died and I think about my own mortality as a result. They died quite young.
None of us know how long our time is on earth and we just have to make the best of things and find meaning and love.

I think that when shit things happen, it is natural to question every thing. It isnt normal to want to die though. Do see your gp if it continues op, a bit of rumination is one thing, but a person should not feel like this on a daily basis

I do

Yes and no.
Yes sometimes. Life is just endless chores and tiredness and killing the planet using resources.
No sometimes life is good, and I love my kids, and I currently have good health and good and shelter and there's stuff I want to do.
Got to roll with the punches, and wait for an up swing.
I also lost someone close this year, and my last relative - other than my kids (mother) is rapidly going downhill. And I know several people currently in and out of hospice care just waiting to go. Things like that make you evaluate your life and wonder if it's worth the effort if we are all going to die anyway.

So I think I get it?

Yes sometimes but I haven't got anything bad happening to me like what you mention so much easier to have up moods too, I do hope you have good RL support & so sorry you're going through such a hard time

I don’t want to die but the thought of ending up very old and in a care home is depressing so I hope it happens somehow before that

Yes. I'm only here so I can look after my parents later on. It's hard work being here though, and I am worn out with it.

Never mind. It is as it is.

I'm sorry for your loss sonicknuckles - I suppose I am too reflecting on morality and when you think about that a lot of life's crap seems utterly futile. I find it hard to get enamoured about anything at the minute.

I feel like this. I look upon myself as existing, I haven't actually felt like I'm living for a long time. My life is incredibly sad and stressful. I'm too cowardly to do anything to end it but feel gutted that I wake up each morning and have to live through another day.

I was just about to express the same sentimet as Knittedfrog. I wake up every morning and feel crushed by the thought that I have to do it all over again. And again. And again.

To my eternal shame, when a family member was seriously ill about 18 months ago, there was this tiny little flash of hope in my mind, that if X dies, then I am freed go too. I'm just gong through the motions of living for the sake of other people.

Bugger, That was longer than I expected. I've never actually let that out before.

It's the sheer repetitiveness of it all

as Robbie once sang -
I dont want to die but I aint keen on living either

to all. I feel like it a bit lately, bit of a midlife crisis. Couldn’t do anything about it but feel the relentlessness of it all.

I have felt like this. But when I discovered a lump, I felt sick with worry about dying too young and leaving a child without a mother.

Yes, but that’s because my DH died in his 30s.

Sometimes I feel like there might be positive things to look forward to (I’m only 40). Sometimes I’m just here for the kids, giving them the best childhood I can and trying to set them up for adulthood.

I wish I could be with him, my life partner, but I’d like him to come back rather than me dying.

Love to all feeling less than joyous. I know it sounds annoying (but maybe you can take it from a young widow) but there are always things to be thankful for.

No I don't but I do get where you're coming from. Life is so complex and sometimes you have to ask: why?; when will it be me?; what's the point?
My faith helps but sometimes it's hard to really believe.

Yes. But I’m currently in a psychiatric hospital for depression/suicidal ideation

No, I'm nowhere near ready yet. It sounds as though you have a good life OP, so just stop overthinking. What will be, will be.