Early on in my relationship, dp treated me quite badly. Stupidly, (please don't judge me!) I didn't address it and just sucked it up and carried on with life almost in denial.
After the birth of my first baby, it all was a bit too much as he was horrible to me after the birth and a few months later I told him I was leaving. He apologised and said he would change and to give him a chance. He did change and things have been ok since.
But my problem is that I don't think I'm really over it and haven't got past it. Every time we hit a bit of a rocky patch like most couples do eg a job loss etc I go back to that time and how I felt and what happened and I just hate him for it. I just want to leave. I'm so confused. An I being an idiot for staying? Or is my problem that I'm not moving on from the past and enjoying what I have now? Would I be throwing it all away?!