Simply due to anxiety and agoraphobia?
I’ve got a hospital appointment 200 miles away on Saturday . Have been told it can be rescheduled to a hospital closer , and it’s elective , mental health so it won’t make much difference if I go or not at the moment.
I’ve got horrendous anxiety issues at the moment . Managing to leave the house for short times with a great deal of support but not much more than that . Haven’t gone anywhere alone in the last 4 months . I’m permanently battling the panic that I’m going to suddenly drop dead , which makes it very difficult to do absolutely anything . Spend all day every day trying to find reassurance to make me feel that that’s not likely to happen .
My aunty suggested I stay at hers and go to the appointment , I can get an Uber there and back (from her house to the appointment) and can get assistance to do the train journey (two hours with one change) , but I’m so scared and don’t think I can do it . Lots of health issues stacking against me and I think I’d find it easier staying at home , rather than sitting alone on a train for two hours .
I can get the money back if I cancel my train ticket but I really don’t know what to do . I’m so frustrated and angry with myself over everything .
I have got GP yet again tomorrow to see what they think - if I should take diazepam with me or something - but I don’t know what the answer is .