Recently I have been feeling low. I have the most amazing husband and three children. Who are soo well behaved and adorable. And I'm a full time mum which I really love and believe is the best job in the world. But I have no job career and sometimes wish I had. I miss my children small and wish them as baby's just for one more day. I brought a house which I love but I'm not sure it's my forever home. And wish sometime we brought another house.i wish I had gone on more holidays while my kids were younger and wish I had traveled more. I look back at old photos and want those days back and miss the photos I do not have. Exspecially as I feel absent from my children's life's as I am lucking to be in one or two a month. Now my kids are in school I feel lonely when they are in school. Today we went out as a family we really enjoyed best day we have had in a while. I've laughed alday but it wasn't till I got home I realised we only took 4 photos and none of me and my husband but at the time we all talked played and really enjoyed. I feel so sad as sometimes I think about the things I would like but can't have or is in the pasted. Exspecially the first 5 years of my children's lives I wish I was in more photos not just 1 a month from the day they were born. And I sat and cuddled them for longer x