Struggling to coming to terms with failing

[ErmBop]

I'm nearing 40. I had so much potential but I was never going to be able to achieve anything because of my past. It's moulded be into a nervous wreck whose effects have reverberated into every area of my life imaginable.

I've seen friends and family flourish through life relatively unscathed and though I am happy for them it stings so so much. All my talents and opportunities just sliding away from me and now it's too late. Life has been so cruel.

Just having a shit day and want to rant!

I understand how you feel entirely. Life hasn't gone the way I thought it would at all. At one point it looked promising but a combination of my own mistakes and misjudgments and some bad luck has meant I'm not where I thought I would be at all.
I'm about to turn 40 too and that feels quite seismic.
I don't agree with you that it's all too late however. In fact I've resolved to try again and maybe go in a different direction work wise which will be a slog-because i don't want to get to 80 and still feel like this about my life.

It's never too late.

You’re not even 40 and are hopefully only about half way through your life.