Coming out of work tonight with a colleague. It's been a lovely day, but we never get to see it as we're in a busy school. I say "oh no, just as we come out it goes cloudy!" She says (not in an overtly nasty tone) "For gods sake Fuckery, if you can't cheer up I'm going to punch you" I was taken aback and said well, it's still fine and warm and I did X which was good. "There you go, it's not all bad"
I support her in class with a student, I work very hard (as does everyone) making sure lots of things work at school, I'm supportive, I listen, Ihelp out with many things not in my job description. Yes, sometimes my job feels thankless, I'm quite stressed (but I don't show it) because I'm not the only one and others have it worse. I am a bit serious, but not all the time. Now I just can't get her words out of my head. I'm devastated to think that I'm regarded as some fun sucking old misery. She's a young popular teacher with an easy manner with the kids, I'm lots older and struggle with how kids relate to me sometimes. I felt really saddened by what she said at tge time, but now I'm feeling a bit angry, it's a bit like being told to cheer up love. I'm not one to pretend, or put on a facade with people I thought liked me.
Sorry that was a rant, but know it's going to chew me up.