I want to go out for a walk

[blameitonmyjuice]

It’s a gorgeous hot sunny day here and my mum’s gone out for a walk . I’m sat at home bloody crying because I’m agoraphobic and can’t seem to get myself out for longer than 5 or 10 minutes . I’m desperate to get out and be normal and enjoy things but when I think of doing that I can think of a thousand reasons why not - I might faint , or otherwise fall ill is the main one even though I’ve no real reason for that . How can I beat this ? I’m supposed to be getting a train 125 miles in three weeks , and making at least one change on the way !! I’m on anti depressants etc ... no difference so far .

I had really bad social anxiety for over a year and didn't go out at all during that time. I'm much better now, so it does get better things I did after my year when I was getting better is I would go for a walk at like 1am or go to a 24hr supermarket at 4am etc when I knew little to no people would be about and the most important thing to remember is tomorrow is a fresh day, don't think about any failures about not getting out etc the next day.