I made a GP appointment two weeks ago. It was the soonest available. It's due tomorrow but I'm feeling slightly better at the moment. Shall I cancel (it would be the second cancellation) on the basis that I probably will feel worse again soon and appointments are so hard to get.
My situation is; three teenage DS. DS3 doing GCSEs soon, DS2 doing A levels soon and DS 1 doing nothing much having messed up his A levels last year. He's doing bits of work and deciding what to do next but in the meantime drinks a lot, sleeps a lot and causes arguments amongst us all. Divorced about four years ago. Ex contributes financially but not often around as he moved away after divorce.
I work FT I also have sole responsibility for DM who has Alzheimer's and lives 400 miles away. She has carers (funded by SS)but they just come in for half an hour at a time and give her snack and help her wash etc. I manage everything else eg. Maintain the house, garden, medical appointments, shopping etc. I am utterly utterly exhausted and frazzled. Permanently weepy, angry and at the end of my tether. Neither DM or I can afford to pay for any extra help. I have been begging for more help from SS for about a year but keep being told there is no more. I think DM should really go into residential care closer to our home but SS don't agree and we can't afford private.
I am doing all the right things to cope with the stress. I try to sleep enough, I get lots of fresh air and exercise and I don't smoke or drink. When I can I spend time with my lovely, supportive friends and I am also lucky enough to have a counsellor which is subsidised by my local carers charity. But I am still utterly at the end if my tether. I don't know why I made the appointment, I don't know what I expect him to do. Is there anything a GP can do? I don't really want anti depressants. I don't think there is anything wrong with my brain chemistry I am just under enormous pressure.