FFS I'm 10 days late.

[ViolentGin]

I'm going to have to take a test aren't I?

2 and a half years ago I would have killed for this. It was literally all I wanted and now I cant imagine anything worse than being pregnant. I have a beautiful 2.5 year old boy who DH and I adopted 18 months ago. Our family is complete, I absolutely do not want any more children and neither does he. His sperm count was so incredibly low (I can't remember the exact amount but it have us a 0.05% chance of ever getting pregnant naturally) so I haven't been on any contraception since because we quite naturally assumed it would never happen.

I know nothing is confirmed until I take a test but I have this horrible sinking feeling in my stomach that I'm going to have to do something that I never thought I would have to do and terminate a pregnancy. I'm not anti-abortion at all, but it's just not what I expected for us.

This isn't one of those "am i pregnant" posts because I realise that strangers on the internet don't have a window into my uterus, but just needed a handheld before I venture down to the shops later (ornpossibly wait until Monday) to buy a test. FML.

I suffed with severe anxiety after our DS came home. I didn't cope with the sleepless nights. My son is statistically more likely to have additional needs as he gets older/starts school. I want to give him my full attention. Cost of childcare would mean my DH would need to give up work, and he would not enjoy being a SAHP. Our lovely little equilibrium would be shot to bits.

Oh OP.

Firstly, you need to get that test done. If its positive, just give yourself a few days to take it in and work out what you need to do. You are able to have a termination if that's way you want so you have options.

I'm just worried that it if it positive, I will have no one to turn to for support. My DH, obviously, but he isn't the best at showing emotions. He will in his own way but it wint necessarily be what I need. My mum has been on at me for months to get a coil fitted "just incase" as she knows I dont want any more, and my best friends will ultimately support me but wont understand why I dont want a baby.

You could consider counselling before you make the decision? I think the charities who run the clinics offer counselling. TBH, if a friend came to me in your situation I probably wouldn't know what to say as I'd be worried about getting it wrong. I think a professional counsellor who is not a friend of yours would be a better person to confide in.

I think you need to take that test before you panic.