Recently I've been beating myself up about everything. Lack of photos of me in them with my baby. Not having a decent career. I love my kids more then the world but I don't now why I feel sad. I'm upset my kids are growing up and starting to be independant. I miss the baby cuddles and bottle feeding and bathing a newborn. I'm not sure if it's the missing baby stage that makes me sad or that I have no photo evidence to look back on. I should be happy my kids are growing up happy and have there own personality but I soo miss the younger years.