During the birth of my 18 year old D I was assaulted by a midwife. It has taken a long time for me to think of it in this way. I have memories of her birth that haunt me. Basically a midwife touched me repeatedly inappropriately. I do not know her name and would find it difficult to identify her. I am however haunted by the fact that I didn’t speak up. If she did this to me I’m sure she will have done it to others. The memories I have of my daughters birth are tainted. Her 18th seems to have brought this again to the fore. Part of me says go to the hospital and tell them. But If i cant identify her what’s the point. My D was my second child and I had no such issues during my first birth. I keep wondering if I am just making more of this and I need to pull myself together But year after year it comes back. I have happy memories of my sons birth. It’s not the same for my D,,